I started the year knowing 2022 will be tough, since 2020 and 2021, I have no jobs

I got a chance to help create a neuroscience exhibition at Chula hospital with Prof. Chaipat and Prof. Sirawaj, we created almost 10 stations with very little budget, only for a few hours only, It was really fun and try to make all devices work.

I want to improve the task division for the teams and do better pr.
It was great fun to learn about the bug in our brain, that cause the illusion, a mysterious phenomenon. And my quest to learn about the brain, mind and memory will be going forever I think, I such a slow learner.

February – March

I perform Dance Offering with Kade in Singapore, it was quite tough for me to handle the system, being a host and control the sound, vr system and all the queue has to be perfect, Ming still inexperience in handling the performance, he will get better,

I handle 3 round of performance, the first one was good, the second and third was not so good, some missing queues, my hosting wasn’t deliver enough energy to the audiences.

I want to do live projection mapping on the body while moving, still not accomplish

I support others at the cost of myself.

April

I got covid and I was rushing to make work for Pichet, 59 models, 3d mapping, workshops and animation. It was very tough for me. I wasn’t understand the 6 elements enough to create work for him. So I kinda fail.

I was also preparing a brain dance project when I have time and prepare for exhibition at JWD and prepare to move house for house renovation. Very hectic and crazy.

I think my mental was at the brink of breaking

I had opening at Noble for Pichet and Jwd for my own work

June

I help create a dance piece using brainwave of the dancer to show the shifting brain indifferent state of dance, routine, improvisation, resting and motor imaginery

Visually we make it presentable but not excellent, I wish I could make 2nd iteration more refine in term of the real time brainwave visualization and sonification, which is very challenge to get the technical right with the limited processing resources.

July

Before all the fun start, it was a nightmare to move all our hoarded stuffs to new place for our house renovation. It was a real nightmare to rush it, I failed to work on details with designer and contractor, but I really have little energy. My body was so weak, I was so stress, I couldn’t sleep

I also fail help prepare exhibition for Mick at Tiang, I hope the staffs will be more professional in handling the exhibition but they aren’t, I shouldn’t have take this unpaid project, I just hope that this chance will open door to help other artists but it was too much for me.

Another milestone for me is to work with Pakpoom to host 7 artists a month residency at Naresuan University, I’m new to the place but it was fun to learn something new with friends. I met so many great mind there.
Organize workshop for 50 people was another nightmare for me. I failed to properly host and take care the program, to articulate the conversation and dialogue with participants, our organizer team was super tired, next year I will try to plan and prepare better.

August

I continue moving stuffs to new place, unfinished nightmare continues. And prepare my trip.
I was at a tough spot financially, I have to advance money to pay for my trip to Montreal and Busan, I got a residency in Montreal and invited to exhibit works and give a talk in Busan, I combine 2 trips together to safe money,

September

flying to Montreal via New Year is the most budget option since I book the ticket quite late, Thanks to Fame and Keng who hosted me and gave me such an amazing impression in New York, though it was raining bad, cold but I had a great memory. New York, I wish to return.

Montreal was much quiet, calm and feel much safer than New York, people seems to dislike New York but I was excited by its energy.
We stay at 2 airbnbs a retired Physic professor and a musician Jean Claude. The beginning of autumn still not as cold, I found a place to play badminton, I can ride bicycle and shopping mall, it’s very expensive in Montreal. 600thb for a salty Krapao Kaidao.

We took Charlene’s car to the Chalet in the middle of the forest north west from the city. An hour and a half drive, there’s no train system in Canada, they said winter is too cold for the train.

The chalet was nice, A wooden cabin with a fireplace, large kitchen and dining area, I share an attic room with Robert, a retired architect, former Dean. Our works look similar in form though we never know each other before.

An intense 4 days at chalet, series of lecture, workshop, performance from researcher, neuroscientist, artists.
What make a sleeper
Spiritually connecting through blindfold and psychic writing.
Tribal sleep by Robert
Dream Science by Tory
Dayna artist talk
Slow walk by Niks
Deep listening by Natalie
Sleep and Breathing somnography by Aleks’ sister
Voval by Albertine
Design work by Clara
Ding Yun and I we presented our past works Naga Cave, Young Eel, Lunartic Dream…

I met Manon – artist and lecturer
Sandra A witch with her craft
Navid artist with his lab at concordia

I was trying to integrate into new community, It is my first entry to the scene in North America, they are very intellectual and well articulated,

I was so much inspired by the sleep salon retreat, I wish I could join some lab and work there on sleeping project.

Time to depart and another 30 hours from Montreal to Busan, a direct flight to Seoul then 3hours train to Busan, I was so hungry after arrived and I had a great fish cake and kimbab at Seoul station. I felt so strange arriving at another strange city after a long flight, I usually arrive at home in Bangkok, but then another strange place. I’ve been to Seoul several time since my journey still going.

Busan is lovely city, nice road, beach, clear sky and sea breeze in autumn, I went to set up exhibition with Eiair, I designed to make it quick and we can get it done quickly. I wish I have work that easier to sell. I always make too much experiment works. Eiair’s works was amazing, I wish people support him more. I wish I could support him myself.

I gave a talk about BioArt residency I hosted and presented some works from Thai artists that I really like, Ade and Koganecho was sharing their activity, I hope we have more collaboration in future, actually I hope to get some funding to do project there. Busan has a world expo logo 2030.

I had a chance to revisit my friends in Seoul, how their life changes after a few years, people grows and flourish in their own right. And we meet when the right time comes.

Coming home

October

I was joining a 2 weeks research trip in Chiangmai with Esther and others 7 group of artists, we learn from the nature, learn from each other,

Echolocation by Esther
Rice ball yeast by RBSC
Procession – walking and orange peeling by Zihan
Assembly and Inter Network – message scattering in public by Refika
Playground creation by Lihn
Skincode by Yung An
Devices of enter by Chitti
Sleep Salon by me
Cinema vipassana by LOLOLOL

I always curious about Chitti, practice. We followed him to the forest temple, I chatted with him about the practice. I had a chance to getting to know Chitti and Ann more, a conversation about life, art and meditation.

We’ve been searching for peace, through our own mean, I try to strive in the art world, my practice couldn’t strive to financial success now, but slowly I find a balance in my own creation, it’s a process of understand life, how I become better adult, mature in my temperament, as a person who can take care others, who will be better at given responsibility. It’s myself that need transform incrementally.
finding my own pace, I’ll try to enjoy every moment.

2023 will be another tough one, I foresee, I will make it, carefully and steadily,

As my life becomes hectic from projects and house renovation. I don’t have time to think through and process, all in front of me.

Once we have structure, then we slowly trying to create details and transition in each parts. Sound and visual cues slowly build up. I was also trying to develop more visuals but later we narrow it down to what’s necessary to be shown. I’m worry that the vqgan clip that I used will be outdate and the visual will look old. Catching up with the technology is challenge for the piece. And to bring in vr. When we tried to use it in powerful computer it has less problem than low spec vr headset quest 2 that struggle to handle high graphic elements in spatial.

We had participants prepared and join the show on stage with us. As we planned to improvise with live audiences, but with covid restriction in sg, we then have participants prepared, it made our structure easier to handle and better for the cue. Still participants struggle to use hand gesture to control headset and navigate themselves into Digital Shrine in spatial room is difficult in flashing light condition.

I create sound and effect from the video I took at temples and some from online, it is low quality with not so clear and also noisy with other sound. Chee wai told me, the imperfection of it that made it’s interesting. I want to make it perfect sound at first but I couldn’t do it. This is another aspect to think about the imperfection of the details in sound.

Beside from control audio and visual, I am the host of the shrine, I perform and engage with audiences to invite them and keep their attention. Daniel suggested that I don’t have to seek audiences attention all the time, at first I tried to improvise but I stuck and could improvise. Later I wrote down my own script trying to make it a rhyme, but turn out that I make my own rhyme joke, that has to be question for its seriousness for the show, people laugh but do we want it.
Gade was creating high art, precision choreograph, I was relaxing and cracking joke, telling people about Hatthi and selling chicken and zebra. the contrast of the energy that I

The floor projection was difficult to see. I want to create more interactive visual and generative projection mapping, but the technology isn’t ready yet. And I start to doubt the necessary for using them in the show.

The ar part somehow need to be success in bringing live audiences into the Shrine, but inside shrine itself, struggling seems to make imperfection as reflection for the believe and creating intense anticipation for the success which is not. The ending part is still question if we should try to make the wish fulfilled or tell them it’s unsuccessful today.

When the qr code come up without tell them, everyone pull out their phone to scan. Perhaps in the future we can let audiences play part in constructing scene for the dancer to perform. Audiences is part of creation of the piece. ‘I like this idea’, I always like participatory and distribute the ownership. But this also can make the presentation of the works become unpredictable, which is not good and not bad.

I used Sound plant for Sound
for visual I use Vqgan clip to generate visual and animation
Synesthesia for audio reactive
obs for scene change
air server for connecting Gade phone to my phone
spatial for metaverse
vdmx for mixing visual and transition for all things together

I still find some transition need to be smoother but I couldn’t make it as I want yet. Also some layer opacity in vdmx need to be update.

I m going to show new work in Singapore next week,

it took me almost 2 years to regain my strength on my leg and arm muscles, i can move fast as I want, I have to be careful of my knees as I hope it will last in this condition as long as it can be,

When I can move fast, I can wait a little longer, just a few more second to think where I can hit next, what is the smartest or most fun to play, i can trick opponent and solve problems, I must keep the body strong without that my mind will be weak.

I must keep my stomach healthy otherwise pain will distract all my thoughts and ideas.

My life is drifting with the opportunities that took me, like a seed that glide with the uncertain breeze, fly high and plummet low.

Perhaps I should feel grateful for all opportunities I received for this year.

New collaboration pieces with Kade, and new direction for my own practises. I got a chance to show my projects.

But with small misunderstanding led to trouble attitude and disturb working mood. Think will find way.

The most difficult things is to balance, between works, relationship, family, mental health, physical health, passion, and more, IKIGAI it is.

Should I give up house renovation this year? Should I convince my parents… it will be much relief for me.

Just to remind myself that in the future and ongoing collaboration we should talk about copyright and ownership of the works to be as clear as possible. Sign the contract will be better. To prevent future dispute.

Today my harddisk also error, it’s kinda feeling suck today.

It was quite difficult for me to come up with new ideas during Bangkok lockdown and curfew,
I had a few conversations with Kuangyi about Bat cuisine in Thailand, creating speculative Bat cuisine sounds fun, I also want to visit the remote area of Thailand where they still have this menu. but these ideas drop.

then We try Soil paper exchange with Mio and Tiffany, we create Soil paper with local soil and send it to each other. we want to send microbiomes to other countries. the ideas of land, soil, and microbes couldn’t push further as well.

I was inspired by a cardanotrees, they claim to create a tree that lives and grows on the blockchain, I really want to do it. but it requires programming knowledge I don’t have,

I found a platform Spatial.io to create a room with an environment that I want, so I decided to create a Weed Garden to connect with Tiffany’s project, weed warrior https://www.inaturalist.org/projects/weed-warriors in the metaverse where people can share their images of weed, discuss their observations, and nature.

Visit Weed Garden

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Official website of the project

https://www.bioartasia.com/?fbclid=IwAR2XZTN-xWpnsDr24of8RtU_zvzSCuseAIyxjMVwTBrUKCBOd1TeoroMarc

Special Thanks

Tang Fu Kuen
Hsiao Chi
Tiffany Lay

Dance Offering is a semi-ceremonious performance that is at the heart of Thai society’s belief system. Based on Thai classical dance as a means of negotiating with God to get a pledge or deeds returned.

Dance Offering usually perform at temple or shrine where the prayer hire dancers to perform dance offering. We are investigating the feasibility of extending this ritual into a digital format and the metaverse in this project.